Prayer

As I was falling asleep last night I began to pray. I prayed for my roommates in South Africa, for YoungLife, for my relationships -> for guidance, wisdom, patience, and trust in those relationships. I asked that my will would be in line with what the Lords plan for my life is. All good things that definitely need prayer. But thats when I stopped. I asked the Spirit to fill me with his desires. That I would be able to feel his presence. A lot of times I pray with my mind made up, I have a plan for how things need to go or should be going. I make it about me and not about the Lord working in me or what he is trying to teach me. I don't trust, I don't wait, I just do and ask for his blessing after the fact. Lately I have been trying to not pray out of selfish motives, but wait on the Lords presence and see where he is leading. It is really hard for me to slow down and wait. Isn't it better to wait on something that is perfect rather than on something you can think up that is ultimately going to fail if its not the Lords will?, Sometimes I wish I could see the bigger picture and know exactly what is going to happen, where I'm going to end up. The only problem with that is it doesn't require faith. If we knew what was going to happen how we were going to end up we would have no need for a God or savior. We could do everything on our own and have no need for a savior. The cool thing about trust is that we aren't in control, we have to humble ourselves and let the Lord work in us teaching us all along the way. I'm not the best at letting go, I'm probably closest to the worst. I have been praying that the Lord would grant me peace in his will and that I would be okay with the outcome. I know he has the best in store for me, his track record is flawless, he has the ability to change my heart, and he will if thats what is needed.

"The Lord is good and his timing is perfect." It may not be exactly how I want it but its exactly how God planned it and it is what is best for me.

Another thing about prayer: {We can talk to the God of the universe} is that not crazy?! Its not because of anything that we have done or could ever do. But its because of God's Holy Spirit that is dwelling within us who make us holy and blameless in the eyes of the Lord. And if you didn't know, the reason we got dis Holy Spirit is cuz of dis guy named JESUS who died for our sins. Holla at me if you ain't know. Now excuse me, I gots to get my tree fed.