Yesterday, as I was driving I had the most overwhelming sense of peace. I can't explain it or why it came over me. It is certainly not because I don't have anything to be stressed over or because everything in my life is going according to the plan I had for it. I have been in a weird mood for the passed 2 or 3 weeks. The thought of graduating and moving on is starting to hit me in bits and pieces. I bought my cap and gown yesterday, but even that felt as if it weren't real, like I was buying it for someone else. We had our last YoungLife club on Monday night and it didn't hit me until I was packing my car full of all our club stuff. Anna came over and we reflected on our passed 3 years of being in the high school sharing Christ's love with our high school friends. I don't feel like I have had a chance to slow down in the passed couple weeks which is why I can know things but not be able to process them at the time. I don't know what's going to happen when I have the chance to slow down, it probably isn't going to be pretty.
When I can't explain the peace I have but I do know where it is from. I am confident that it was the Lord. I have been able to see him working in my life and pushing and pulling me to the things that he has waiting for me. He has opened door after door for me, he has provided, and he is going to continue to do so. Just because I am moving on does not mean that he will not be with me where ever I go. He has had me here for a reason in this season of my life, he was preparing me for the next season of my life, and as I enter this new season he will be there and will be working out his good and perfect plan in my life.
Friday, April 22, 2011
Monday, April 18, 2011
Today
For some reason I cannot grasp the fact that it is Monday. Since I have woken up I have been thinking about everything that is going on on Tuesday. Even though I have been preparing for YoungLife tonight I have been thinking about the different things I have to do tomorrow night as if it were tonight. I even packed my tuesday thursday notebooks and brought them to campus. Am I going crazy? I think so. There is just to much to process.
So today while I was walking to campus I saw a guy walking and listening to what appeared to be rock music. I could tell it was rock music because he was head banging and singing. What made this stick out to me was the fact that every other head bob he would have to replace his head phones because he shook them out of his ears. Time for some new headphones homeboy.
I picked out a salmon colored t-shirt this morning, it was between it and my I love Chick-fil-a shirt. So I was already a little uneasy wearing it, because I didn't know if I should have picked the other one instead. So of course I received multiple compliments on my shirt for some reason... I can't help but think that this shirt in fact has something wrong with it and everyone knows it. The only reason the are complimenting me is because they feel bad for me.
So today while I was walking to campus I saw a guy walking and listening to what appeared to be rock music. I could tell it was rock music because he was head banging and singing. What made this stick out to me was the fact that every other head bob he would have to replace his head phones because he shook them out of his ears. Time for some new headphones homeboy.
I picked out a salmon colored t-shirt this morning, it was between it and my I love Chick-fil-a shirt. So I was already a little uneasy wearing it, because I didn't know if I should have picked the other one instead. So of course I received multiple compliments on my shirt for some reason... I can't help but think that this shirt in fact has something wrong with it and everyone knows it. The only reason the are complimenting me is because they feel bad for me.
Friday, April 15, 2011
Thursday, April 14, 2011
I've Got My Joy!
I'm not sure how to explain how I've been feeling lately. I guess a big part of it is my impending graduation and realizing how close I am to it. But as of this week, I have found my JOY! Not that I've been depressed or upset, I have just been living kind of floating from one thing to the next. I started claiming joy in the mornings when I would wake up, and setting myself up to have great days. Its crazy how when you set out with the intent to have a great day, to soak up what the Lord has prepared for you, how you can truly appreciate things, conversations, and people you may otherwise look over. Its crazy to think that your footsteps are planned for you, the Lord knows every step you're going to take, every conversation you will have. He has planned and ordained your entire day. All you have to do is step into it, align yourself with him and he will take care of the rest. Enjoy the days that the Lord has planned out for you. One of my favorite quotes is "God ain't never made a bad day; so I have no excuse to make it one." and another quote that just came to me is "I'm not who I was, I'm sure not who I'm going to be, but by the grace of God I am who I am."
Last night as I was going to bed I looked at myself in the mirror and realized that I, don't take this the wrong way, really like myself! I walked upstairs and John was reading his B-I-B-L-E and I asked him if he liked himself, he said "yes" after getting over the odd question, and I responded "good, its important to like who you are." This is so true! If you can't look in the mirror and honestly like who you see, you need to realize that you are a child of the Most High God! That YOU were fearfully and wonderfully made! You were created in the image of God! That you were knit together in your mothers womb! That you were bought at a price! That you are worth it! That you made for a purpose! Live in it, own it, believe it! Its easy to be beat down by people, circumstances, and even yourself. Be who you are! Be who you were MADE to be! Don't listen to the lies that the enemy tries to put in your head, but rather claim the truth that the Lord has spoken over your life.
More to come... I have to plan for campaigners in the morning.
Last night as I was going to bed I looked at myself in the mirror and realized that I, don't take this the wrong way, really like myself! I walked upstairs and John was reading his B-I-B-L-E and I asked him if he liked himself, he said "yes" after getting over the odd question, and I responded "good, its important to like who you are." This is so true! If you can't look in the mirror and honestly like who you see, you need to realize that you are a child of the Most High God! That YOU were fearfully and wonderfully made! You were created in the image of God! That you were knit together in your mothers womb! That you were bought at a price! That you are worth it! That you made for a purpose! Live in it, own it, believe it! Its easy to be beat down by people, circumstances, and even yourself. Be who you are! Be who you were MADE to be! Don't listen to the lies that the enemy tries to put in your head, but rather claim the truth that the Lord has spoken over your life.
More to come... I have to plan for campaigners in the morning.
The week in review
Yet again its been a while since my last post. This past week or so has been fairly busy with YoungLife, school, Chick-fil-a camp out, and Footloose at the high school. I've also had a couple interviews.
At the Chick-fil-a camp out I got super sunburnt. I will say it was well worth it. We made some new friends and I was able to do a lot of reading. Its fun being a part of something. A lot of the people who do the camp outs travel around and do all the openings in the area. One couple has done 96! That same couple would find me every meal and give me their left over food... I don't know why. They were one of 3 older couples to adopt Daniel, Cory, and me.
I will be working at Diamond Creek Golf Course this summer as a caddie! Hopefully I will be able to pay off my car and be able to save some before the next step in my life. I went and had a tour of the facilities on Friday. It will be the 3rd top 100 course I have worked at and been able to play!
Watching Footloose last night was awesome even though we had a slightly obstructed view. It was so fun seeing some of my guys preforming. I was having trouble differentiating the play from real life. If I ever have kids and they do anything like that I don't know what I'll do. Speaking of kids, at the intermission a little boy came up to me and said "you're really tall. How tall are you?" I told him and he said "We'll I'm suppose to be taller than you!"
One of my high school guys brought 2 friends to YoungLife on Monday and he asked them what they thought about it and they said that one thing that was said they didn't agree with. They said that they didn't like it when Lauren said that Jesus was the only living god, that all other gods are dead. This got me thinking and I talked about it with my campaigners group. The truth is that God is the only LIVING god, and because of that we are able to have a relationship with him. I looked up scriptures in the OT and NT where God says we are to put no god before him. People can have other gods or idols in their lives but these things will not bring the fulfillment of having a relationship with the one living God. They for most part are about what we can do, how we can work our way to heaven, how we can be good enough, or how we can eventually become a god ourselves, this is exhausting. Christ offers us the free gift of salvation, there is nothing we have done or can do to deserve it.
These posts have been scattered and it has taken me a while to put them up. But I kind of feel like that is how my life is right now. Graduation is in a couple weeks. Crazy. And I am proud to say I have had over 1,000 views on my blog!
At the Chick-fil-a camp out I got super sunburnt. I will say it was well worth it. We made some new friends and I was able to do a lot of reading. Its fun being a part of something. A lot of the people who do the camp outs travel around and do all the openings in the area. One couple has done 96! That same couple would find me every meal and give me their left over food... I don't know why. They were one of 3 older couples to adopt Daniel, Cory, and me.
I will be working at Diamond Creek Golf Course this summer as a caddie! Hopefully I will be able to pay off my car and be able to save some before the next step in my life. I went and had a tour of the facilities on Friday. It will be the 3rd top 100 course I have worked at and been able to play!
Watching Footloose last night was awesome even though we had a slightly obstructed view. It was so fun seeing some of my guys preforming. I was having trouble differentiating the play from real life. If I ever have kids and they do anything like that I don't know what I'll do. Speaking of kids, at the intermission a little boy came up to me and said "you're really tall. How tall are you?" I told him and he said "We'll I'm suppose to be taller than you!"
One of my high school guys brought 2 friends to YoungLife on Monday and he asked them what they thought about it and they said that one thing that was said they didn't agree with. They said that they didn't like it when Lauren said that Jesus was the only living god, that all other gods are dead. This got me thinking and I talked about it with my campaigners group. The truth is that God is the only LIVING god, and because of that we are able to have a relationship with him. I looked up scriptures in the OT and NT where God says we are to put no god before him. People can have other gods or idols in their lives but these things will not bring the fulfillment of having a relationship with the one living God. They for most part are about what we can do, how we can work our way to heaven, how we can be good enough, or how we can eventually become a god ourselves, this is exhausting. Christ offers us the free gift of salvation, there is nothing we have done or can do to deserve it.
These posts have been scattered and it has taken me a while to put them up. But I kind of feel like that is how my life is right now. Graduation is in a couple weeks. Crazy. And I am proud to say I have had over 1,000 views on my blog!
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