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As I'm sitting down to do my first real assignment of the semester I find myself wanting to do anything but. I'm just not motivated I guess. It doesn't help that I have no idea what the article is talking about... (that may be a slight exaggeration). I'm in a weird mood, I just want to be by myself and read or sleep but I know I need to do this assignment, so I'm stuck somewhere in between doing my assignment and putting it off. It may be that subconsciously, now consciously... I don't want to get into a rhythm or routine because that will bring the end of the semester faster and after the semester real life. A thought that as excited as I am about it, I am also really scared about.

I got an email yesterday from Time Warner Arena, saying they appreciated my application but have filled the position I applied for. This was no big surprise but got me thinking about what I am going to do after school. I started thinking about maybe not trying to get a full time job right out of school, but to travel around before starting out in the "real world." I don't know what thought scares me more. I've been so focused on getting a job and starting my life that I haven't given any thought to anything else. But the truth is when else am I going to have the opportunity to take time off and serve the Lord. It would stretch me and refine me, I would be able to see how the Lord is working all over the world... How cool is that? I would see Him in ways I have never before and be able to share His love and gain a better understanding of who he is. I haven't put too much thought into it, or really talked to anyone about it. Just a thought.

Did you know that the average 53 year old man in the US has .9 true close friends? Kind of a depressing. I don't know why I've been thinking about that lately or even why I'm thinking that far in the future. But I heard that this past weekend and its kind of stuck in my head. How does that happen? I hope I am not one of those men with only one friend, I hope I will still be able to invest in friendships and my family. weird

Praying the Lords wisdom over the different choices coming up in my life, that he would make his path known. I feel like I'm on the verge of something big, its kind of scary, but really exciting.